Why this blog?

Welcome! Thank you for visiting my blog!

This is my medical and recreational blogsite. Some of the entries on this blog are honest and quite vulnerable, as I wrote them at my lowest point. I try to keep a positive outlook on life, because no one wants to hang out with a downer, including me. Writing these entries has allowed me to see the world through a beneficial filter that allows me to appreciate every moment I have been able to experience in my life, even the difficult ones.

My husband Matthew and I LIVE when we can. I mean we suck the juice out of life, and we aren't ashamed of that outlook. It makes the bad times ok somehow because we took advantage when we were able. The pictures on this blog are part of that. I take pretty pictures of my sick body to boost my self esteem when I am having a difficult time seeing myself as a woman instead of a sick person. It is how I cope with my illness, and no one gets to judge how you survive your difficulties. So live on, and feed your souls.

Watch our story here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mG_mrDJ10LM&feature=youtu.be


~ Tonia

I have decided to relaunch my Facebook Page, The Beauty in Illness. Along with the help of two other rare patient advocates, we are hoping to include artistic stories of struggle and perseverence through creative ways. Please check us out and let us know if you would like to contribute!




Hospital Me THEN (2012)

Hospital Me THEN (2012)
Dance like no one is watching!

Hospital me NOW (2015)

Hospital me NOW (2015)
Dance like EVERYONE'S watching

Post Transplant-1 Year (March 2014)

Post Transplant-1 Year (March 2014)
Mi Amor Studio

Pre Dialysis Pinup Shoot (2012)

Pre Dialysis Pinup Shoot (2012)
Dynamite Dames

Mid Dialysis Boudoir (March 2013)

Mid Dialysis Boudoir (March 2013)
100 pounds, and a week from transplant, chest tube tucked into bra like a lady. ;)

Non-Pinup Me Now (2015)

Non-Pinup Me Now (2015)
This girl has four kidneys

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

My transplant

Today we had our last appointments and said goodbye to some of the staff and doctors.  Matthew spent the morning trying not to throw up, and I had minor surgery on my chest.  They took my chest port out and that was cool.  Last time I had it out it was a crude process in an exam room at my nephrologist's office.  This was a production.  I was in actual surgery.  Don't get me wrong, I was nervous as I tend to be in awake surgeries, but I like knowing what they do.  And they let me keep my tube which was awesome.

This was a great transplant.  Not only did I feel I was in good hands at University of Iowa, I felt safe.  I haven't felt safe in a hospital in years.  I hate confessing that.  As you all may have read earlier, I had some anxiety issues from being at my local hospital and that was totally unnecessary.  Just about every visit there had resulted in a mistake that costed me a lot.  Don't get me wrong, I have some great doctors in Oklahoma.  But the hospital experience makes all the difference.

I had forgotten what a good hospital can do for your soul.  I trusted these doctors and staff members.  They were fantastic.  Being in a hospital isn't easy.  You are at the whim of a system that isn't always the most efficient for you.  You wait around a lot and get frustrated with things out your control while you are very uncomfortable and sometimes in agony.  Many people can't handle waiting around when they are perfectly healthy.  But when you know everyone around you is doing their best, it helps.  And it helps you get better faster.  Hell!  I can't remember the last time I was admitted for only FIVE DAYS!  What a breeze!

So I am grateful to the University of Iowa for their professionalism and skill.  They are a great team and I would choose them again if I had a chance.  The made us feel welcome, appreciated, and even special.  And my kidney is kicking ass.  My creatinine is 0.9!  Unbelievable!  I couldn't have asked for a better outcome at this point.

This has been a long journey for Matthew and I.  I have fought and fought for this for a long time.  I have suffered from this disease for more than 14 years now.  And I knew I needed a transplant three years ago.  I know it would have taken even longer if I hadn't gone to Iowa to learn everything about aHUS.  Now I feel like aHUS is just a thing about me that is under control.  As long as I have Soliris, I will be ok.  More than ok!  I will be amazing!  And Matthew and I can live a healthy life full of whatever we want.

Now if only I could poop...


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