I am getting an article published for the first time. It is based on my Intimacy for the Stage techniques. It is a great chance for some exposure, and after I wrote it I realized the book I have been longing to write was staring back at me. So hopefully I can get started on that soon. I will post that link when it goes up.
Side effects update: I of course am ever battling the weight gain but am not overweight yet. I have gained 30 pounds from transplant as of now, but I am still in the average BMI place. My other body functions have come back to normal now, and my hair has stopped falling out. I have tons of baby hairs coming in that I have a hard time taming, but I am so happy to see them. There have been some emotional side effects as well. The depression and anxiety started right after the transplant, but I wrote them off. I thought it wasn't a big deal, just low self esteem from the weight gain. But after I went on medication for it I suddenly felt amazing and happy again. I don't like depending on a med to feel better, but I accept it is necessary for now. Of the big side effects I face now, the worst is ...the memory loss.
I have started to lose portions of my memory. I will forget things that happened, or I can't place when things did happen. This used to be an issue with aHUS and kidney failure, but it has gotten worse in the last month or so. When I attended that dinner for aHUS and TTP patients, I learned it was normal for our diseases to have neurological side effects like that. It was then that I started noticing how much of a problem memory loss is for me. The other day, Matthew and I were walking into our apartment building and I suddenly didn't know where I was, like a button was pressed and I couldn't remember where the elevators were. It scared me, but it only lasted for about two seconds. I also find that friends mention things we have discussed before, and I don't know what they are talking about. I am usually too embarrassed to say something.
Here's the funny thing: My doctor referred me to a neurologist, and her office called me today to make an appointment. She said, "The earliest I can get you in is April 7th." I laughed at her. Really?? I took the appointment though. I hope I don't lose all of my memory before I get to see her.
I had some 9 month boudoir/pin up pictures taken and I think they turned out pretty awesome. I wanted to document the changes in my body with my health and it is clear in these I have gained weight from the transplant. I really don't mind (ok some days I do mind. I am still a woman!), and the pictures have helped my self esteem a lot.
Here's just a sneak peek. They haven't been edited yet. These are just straight shots from the proofs. I had them done at Adoralee Studio in Norman.
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