The fog is lifting!

So I realized that I developed a sort of depression for the past few months, and I just now am getting out of it.  I started getting back into some of my panic attacks I used to have, so I started on some medication to help with them. Simultaneously my mood almost instantly lifted.  I didn't think of myself as depressed, but now that I am past it I feel much better.

School starts next week and I couldn't be more excited.  The show has a great shape and now I need actors to make it come to life.  I picked the title, "Dancing in the Storm".  I got this from a quote I was told from Billie Boston, a former colleague of mine from OCU.  When she retired after more than 40 years of teaching (without any kind of goodbye or thank you for your dedication party from the department, ahem ahem.) she gave me a framed quote that said, "It isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain."  She didn't know how much I needed to hear that.  I was sick as hell, and going through the worst time at work.  Her words really touched me and I have tried to live my life by that motto.  So the play is based on this quote.

So despite things going much better in my mind, I have to report that my hair is falling out even worse than before.  It has thinned so much I don't know what to do with it.  I even looked into wigs.  My sister and I used to make a joke from the book and movie, "Little Women".  When Meg's hair gets burned by a curling iron, her little sister Amy says, "Oh No!  Your one beauty!"  I hate that my hair is falling out.  Again, dialysis was worse.  But I just miss my hair.

Ok, enough negative.  I am getting back to theatre!  And there is a show in the makings for January too!  Matthew and I will be performing in a two-person show together!  We are really excited about it!  I haven't ever acted with him before, can you believe it?  It should be really fun.

Hm...Dancing in the storm...do I smell a future tattoo?