A clarification

I went to work yesterday.  I was so excited.  It was the first time in over a year and a half that I felt so excited to be a part of something again.  Being sick is really lonely.

But then it came to my attention from a close friend that I may need to again clarify the purposes of this blog.  There have been some misconceptions about me.  It surprises me to find out that after all we have been through, some people still don't understand why I did all this.  The pictures. 

This blog is not a cry for attention or a need for rebellion.  It hurts me to find out that anyone believes that.  These pictures have absolutely nothing to do with my actual personal sex life.  So whatever ridiculous conclusions people make about what I choose to do when I am not at work don't concern me.  I am happily married to an amazing man, and nobody, NOBODY gets to come into my marriage and make assumptions about us. 

I came back from the dead this year.  That happened.  And it changed me.  It changed both of us. 

There is a girl in Kansas who is suffering from a debilitating illness.  She took sexy pictures of herself showing the feeding tube coming out of her.  Do you think I am making assumptions about her being a slut for trying to see herself as beautiful in this time of being at her lowest low?   Nobody has the right to judge her.  It took courage.  More courage than most people have.  And I love her for it.

And as for any of those unfounded rumors about me:  If you have heard any, try talking to me about it.  If you actually read this blog you know I am honest.  Anyone who wants to hurt me after all of this must have their own issues that keep them up at night. 

Next weekend I will be dressing as a pin-up model for a photoshoot that is a fundraising event helping a 5-year-old suffering from cancer.  Among other things I have been accused of maybe being a poor role model for students. 

I urge you to ask those students.