Why this blog?

Welcome! Thank you for visiting my blog!

This is my medical and recreational blogsite. Some of the entries on this blog are honest and quite vulnerable, as I wrote them at my lowest point. I try to keep a positive outlook on life, because no one wants to hang out with a downer, including me. Writing these entries has allowed me to see the world through a beneficial filter that allows me to appreciate every moment I have been able to experience in my life, even the difficult ones.

My husband Matthew and I LIVE when we can. I mean we suck the juice out of life, and we aren't ashamed of that outlook. It makes the bad times ok somehow because we took advantage when we were able. The pictures on this blog are part of that. I take pretty pictures of my sick body to boost my self esteem when I am having a difficult time seeing myself as a woman instead of a sick person. It is how I cope with my illness, and no one gets to judge how you survive your difficulties. So live on, and feed your souls.

Watch our story here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mG_mrDJ10LM&feature=youtu.be


~ Tonia

I have decided to relaunch my Facebook Page, The Beauty in Illness. Along with the help of two other rare patient advocates, we are hoping to include artistic stories of struggle and perseverence through creative ways. Please check us out and let us know if you would like to contribute!




Hospital Me THEN (2012)

Hospital Me THEN (2012)
Dance like no one is watching!

Hospital me NOW (2015)

Hospital me NOW (2015)
Dance like EVERYONE'S watching

Post Transplant-1 Year (March 2014)

Post Transplant-1 Year (March 2014)
Mi Amor Studio

Pre Dialysis Pinup Shoot (2012)

Pre Dialysis Pinup Shoot (2012)
Dynamite Dames

Mid Dialysis Boudoir (March 2013)

Mid Dialysis Boudoir (March 2013)
100 pounds, and a week from transplant, chest tube tucked into bra like a lady. ;)

Non-Pinup Me Now (2015)

Non-Pinup Me Now (2015)
This girl has four kidneys

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Great, now I can't walk.


So dialysis puts me in a wheelchair as it is, but somehow I got tendonitis in both my ankles.  I can’t put weight down on them at all. 

Ironically I was wearing heels (which I usually do, of course) at Matthew’s parents’ house.  I took them off and was stirring caramel in the kitchen when my right ankle suddenly got very sore.  I thought maybe I pulled something.  When I went to bed I rubbed it, but it felt bruised.  In the morning I couldn’t put any weight on it at all.  Then two days later, my left ankle started hurting because I was favoring one foot.  The ride home was excruciating, and now I am wheelchair bound completely. 

Sometimes I wonder why the gods are throwing so much at me at the same time.  Is this funny to someone?  Because the absurdity isn’t at all lost on me.  I feel like I am in a Fletch movie.  Or some kind of absurd medical horror story.

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