No I'm not pregnant!

So this is one thing they don't tell you might happen.  And really, I am not sure it happens to anyone else.

I look pregnant.  And I am absolutely NOT.  My stomach isn't the flattest around, I admit.  But whenever I eat a meal, especially a slightly large meal, my stomach distends and looks like this:

I am really getting annoyed by this.  Is this normal?  I look seven months pregnant!!  How on earth can this be OK?  Do you know what this does to a 29 year old's sex life?

Not that I ever want babies, (even if I did, THIS body will never be healthy enough to do it) but I certainly don't want the negative things about being pregnant without the coolness of actually having a baby to show for it!

So not sexy.  Ever since this rejection started, I don't recognize myself at all.   And no one seems to think it's a big deal except me.  Ugh, so fat.

The healthiest I have ever felt, or looked

My wedding day, May 30 2009.  This was five months before my rejection hit me like a truck.  My kidney was doing just fine.  No problems at all in the four years since my transplant.