Why this blog?

Welcome! Thank you for visiting my blog!

This is my medical and recreational blogsite. Some of the entries on this blog are honest and quite vulnerable, as I wrote them at my lowest point. I try to keep a positive outlook on life, because no one wants to hang out with a downer, including me. Writing these entries has allowed me to see the world through a beneficial filter that allows me to appreciate every moment I have been able to experience in my life, even the difficult ones.

My husband Matthew and I LIVE when we can. I mean we suck the juice out of life, and we aren't ashamed of that outlook. It makes the bad times ok somehow because we took advantage when we were able. The pictures on this blog are part of that. I take pretty pictures of my sick body to boost my self esteem when I am having a difficult time seeing myself as a woman instead of a sick person. It is how I cope with my illness, and no one gets to judge how you survive your difficulties. So live on, and feed your souls.

Watch our story here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mG_mrDJ10LM&feature=youtu.be


~ Tonia

I have decided to relaunch my Facebook Page, The Beauty in Illness. Along with the help of two other rare patient advocates, we are hoping to include artistic stories of struggle and perseverence through creative ways. Please check us out and let us know if you would like to contribute!




Hospital Me THEN (2012)

Hospital Me THEN (2012)
Dance like no one is watching!

Hospital me NOW (2015)

Hospital me NOW (2015)
Dance like EVERYONE'S watching

Post Transplant-1 Year (March 2014)

Post Transplant-1 Year (March 2014)
Mi Amor Studio

Pre Dialysis Pinup Shoot (2012)

Pre Dialysis Pinup Shoot (2012)
Dynamite Dames

Mid Dialysis Boudoir (March 2013)

Mid Dialysis Boudoir (March 2013)
100 pounds, and a week from transplant, chest tube tucked into bra like a lady. ;)

Non-Pinup Me Now (2015)

Non-Pinup Me Now (2015)
This girl has four kidneys

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Show update!

Well, We have choreographed all but the finale and I am really excited about that.

The show is coming along really well.  The ensemble has been awesome to work with.  They give input, and that helps a lot.  It feels strange to write a story about your life,  but luckily they have given me enough ideas that it doesn't feel exactly the same.  It's less narcissistic.  That was my one fear.

The next step is fine tuning, coaching the acting, and getting all the props together.  Finding a bed has been the most difficult thing.  But I know it will all work out.

On the other side of things, we switched a medication to make my hair stop falling out.  It has been coming out in clumps for the last two months now and doesn't seem to want to slow down.  Hopefully this new medication will help with that.

Numbers are still great, though.  We hit our six month mark this week!  One milestone down!  Matthew is completely back to normal.  Also, my birthday is coming up!  I love birthdays!  I always feel lucky to have reached each one.  

I know I haven't posted pictures in a long time, but I am pacing myself this time.  As soon as I can get my hair figured out I will get right back to it.  Maybe I can get Matthew to join me in them this time.  :)

Yes, I will continue to take pictures.  As long as it feeds my soul.

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